Ah~ It's been a while since i last post anything didn't i? *smiles*
I'm sorry though.
Many things happend to me during this period..
So...
Since i'm on a one week holiday, I think it's good to post something aye?
So....
I've just recently got back my results from the 1st trial PMR exam. And .. to be honest, i'm not doing any good. The good news about it is , i don't get any 'D' though. But the bad news is, i dont get any 'A' for it, much to my disappointment...
The main factor? If you wonder..
The main factor is.. i sit for the 1st day of the test just after 2 days of my grandfather's passing.
That's right, my dear 91-year-old grandfather had left me and my big family forever and ever, to be with God and my dearest grandmother in Heaven.
I can say that i can't focus on my studies, as it happend unexpectedly.
I can sense something is not right when my dad told me that my grandfather is unconscious. So, in order to keep in touch with my relative, i brought my phone to school, which action is prohibited.
After a while in school,i was told by my friend , saying that my grandfather had left me.
Too shock, i cried and decided to went home, to see my grandfather's body and face.
For God sake, he left me before i could even celebrate my 15th birthday! I saw people from the hospital cleaned his body and put on new clothes really made me cry none stop. Honestly, I predict that it's almost his time to go but NOT this fast! I felt sorry towards my mother and her siblings... But they're worth it of crying.. as they have taken care of my grandfather when they're young. For those who never took care of him or never saw him once in a while... i have nothing to say, no, actually i HAVE something to say but i'll keep it in my heart.
I was then told by my mother that one of my uncle, too, left this world on the same date 1st August. So, i guess this is a coincidence. They have left us, there's nothing we could do, except to accept reality and move forward. It's still hurt me the fact that we could not celebrate my 15th birthday, but that is not important right now.
I cried soo hard when the coffin is closed. The sign that it will the VERY last time i'll see my grandfather's face. But then i smile, as this is the only way for him to let go and forget about his pain he have gone through. I prayed for his soul to rest in peace along with my grandmother.
Life goes on as usual.
And now,
Me and my family are okay. Everything's fine. Nothing seems to change. Wait, there's something changing , i realized.
The bond.
The bond between my family and the rest of the generation have become stronger, I can feel it.
And i hope the bonds will stay like that.
Oh and for those who have greeted me birthday wishes, I would like to thank you all.. I know now it's too late.. but thanks anyway!
Till then,
kwanggie
